Lee Zheng's Birthday 11:19 AM

Lee Zheng's Birthday today, also sent an ecard, met on FaceBook later. Apparently his mum's my mum's colleague. Finally found out the name. :P

CS4 Launch 11:12 AM

Today is the Singapore launch of Adobe Creative Suite 4. Got the Developer invitation. Didn't go cuz I was tired. 

IRS Exhibition 11:01 AM

Okay, so things get quite stupid after a few hours and after you have given the same presentation about 20+ times to different groups of people.

That's my booth, and the poster and other stuff was quite well received. Bumped into Mr. Sudesh from ACS(P), and took a look at their booth.

My AirMouse/iPhone ran out of battery halfway, and after lots of fiddling managed to charge it duno why it stopped sometimes. And primary school kids love to touch everything........

There are a lot of interesting booths:

Oh yeah, my reseach was about Biosafety. See www.biosafety.co.nr for the full downloadable research paper.

Anyway, the Suppiah asked me to present to everyone next year, then I told her no way because I was already going to do Moot Parliament. She thinks that is crazy.

IRS Exhibition Prep 10:03 PM

For some unknown reason, my research is now at the IRS exhibition. I dun get to present to everyone though, disappointed. The talk was stupid, and that woman in charge of GEP is extremely irritatingly naggy, just like at Moot Parliament. She needs a PR assistant.

Set up booth, and then went home. Bringing MacBook Pro tomorrow with presentation, and going to use my iPhone as an AirMouse. (Think waving your phone around to control a cursor.....)

Fly By Night 9:50 PM

Went for Fly-By-Night movie screening. Awful. The past year entries were all so lame and boring and stupid. Terrible plots abound.

iPhone Developer Conference 10:35 AM

Okay. Now I am gonna be damn happy.

Today I went with Sridhar and Kapilan for the Singapore iPhone Tech Talks. I think it is very nice of Apple to bring these developer conferences to more countries. I registered online already using my Developer Connection account.

The reception people were super fantastic, they were really really nice. Black T-Shirt and jeans with a black table cloth of course..... I came in like biege pants and an orange T-Shirt, looking like the 1 to 1 shopping person at the apple store.....

The first of two standout scenes was the UI Kit session. There was this presentation, and the slides were filled with size 12 code, highlighted in at least 7 different colors. The speaker ran through it quickly. Did an impossibly fast demo. I was befuddled. And he kept saying that "Its very simple."

The second one was when the system security stopped XCode from compiling an App and running it. The speaker needed an assistant to come on stage where they tried 4 different passwords. The App ran. The security window appeared again. They typed in a password. It didn't work. Worked on the second try.

There were like tea and lunch in between the sessions, and the food was nice. Its really nice of Apple to host this. Did I mention free? It shows they are concerned about the customer experience.

Anyway Winfred appeared halfway through. I duno why Sridhar asked him to come. Winfred was swearing like every 5 min, even during the sessions, and was told by a delegate to be quiet. So embarrassing.

Oh yeah, and we were the only kids there, with the exception of one more guy. So the reception people were even nicer to us, and were very concerned throughout the DevCon, like directing us to more seats and other stuff.

The sessions were really exciting with a few exceptions. I think that this sort of thing really requires you to think through. Its quite complicated, but interesting. With the exception of the Web App Development session. Boring. Terrible. Javascript. The Horror Of It All. Left Halfway through for the Interface Builder session.

I think the whole Developer Conference was really cool. I'm happy with life. :P

Picking Up The Pieces 9:20 PM

Okay.  I'm sorry.  I lied.  I'm not dead. I just kinda not have the mood to talk about myself after that disaster day.

I think I'm happier today, or at least trying to be.  Went to iDA Youth Infocomm day at the Dragonfly nightclub at St. James Powerstation. It was pretty fun, and the exhibits were really interesting.  But the SMS messageboard was screwed up because it didn't display alot of our SMSes until like almost at the end.  And I can't believe that RI won an award for producing an iPhone app with code that was essentially available for free on the internet. Preposterous. 

And they got a fire eater to come by also, which was really cool.

Lunch was tasty.

Puppies and Kittens 10:30 PM

My address-book and iCal sync are in complete disarray, an unhappy image of my life today.  I feel emo...

A number of things didn't quite work out.  I feel upset, ignored, left out, and I still miss the Dan very badly.

The Suppiah has caused great umbrage regarding the IRS exhibition.  Reprinting my poster is expensive and terribly inconvenient.  I am very upset, and she is not helping anything.  But this is still the least of my worries.

I can't hide this any longer, and this is my blog.  I feel left out about not being a PSL.  I can't believe I wasn't selected.  Everyone else is so excited about it.  Its all over FaceBook and other peoples' blog.  Being left out is the worst feeling.  Its like I didn't make the cut.  All the cool people are PSLs.  I try not to show it or talk about it.  I pretend to be uninterested.  But it appears everywhere.  I realize it only hurts when you pretend it doesn't.  Life is so unfair.

I miss the Dan very badly.  I'm holding on to something, hoping it will comeback, but knowing it won't.  It used to be the reason I breathed, but now its choking me up.  Some people think that holding on will make you stronger, but sometimes its letting go that does.

I feel ignored, by people who don't reply to me.  I wish I were as invisible as these people make me feel.  Its like they don't want to talk to me.  Sometimes, I just feel so alone.  I know that some of them are upset too, caught up in mis-happenings in their own lives.  Lee Zheng has suddenly become very upset about something, and he's not talking to anyone.  Silence is the most powerful cry.

Its at these times, that I also remember all the things and people I hate.  And I sit here crying, not because I miss them, but because I know I'll never have the chance to hurt them, like they hurt me.  I do not intend to tiptoe through life only to arrive safely at death.  The existence of these people hurts me almost as much as this razor-blade does.  I hurt myself so you can't.  I buried myself on the inside so I could shut you out.  Every tear tells a different story, and I wish I could gather all my tears so that I could fxxxing drown these people in them.

I hate life, and life hates me.  Depression has only one cure, and no one cared enough to stop me from curing myself.

Grade 6 Theory of Music 9:56 PM

Arrrggghh! This years exam is at the YMCA. So scary. The harmony is totally freaky. And I was memorizing the key signatures like the day before. 

Waiting is like super scary. I though I might find someone I know to talk to. But it seems Daniel Shim quit piano. Apparently he hated it. Damn.

I took almost all three hours to finish the paper, and left almost at the end. I hope I dun fail.