Everything that I am not, made me everything that I am.

Sunday, May 31, 2009

Change of Mind

I've never really written about karate grading. In one sentence, it is confidence shredding, exhaustively tiring, and absolutely nerve wrecking.

Today's was especially bad.

Got tested on something that I didn't even learn, because of lessons missed as a result of _ _ _ _ _ (correct number of letters, guess what it is. Acronym with 3 Cs) Did the rest of the grading with my confidence shredded. It showed. 

Think I'm gonna do badly. Very badly.

NCDCC day parade is finally well and done with. I still have S/NCO course to "look forward" to. Everyone makes it sound difficult. I have no doubt it is. Hao Yang makes it sound just downright scary. Somehow I'm not inclined to not trust him. 

1 week of torture.

Gonna be the toughest 1 week of my life.
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Changed my mind about something yesterday. Forget me trying to be some super mean NCO. Not gonna happen. Whatever made me change my mind had completely nothing to do with NCDCC itself, or UYOs at all, for that matter. Nothing to do with Andrew either.

Flicking through pieces of the past. 

It changed the way I thought about a friend. 

8 comments:

Jem said...

oops did I sound mean? I'm sorry. I'm actually one of the nicer ppl around ACPB.
sorry if you thought otherwise.

but i'm still paikia.

Spiky said...

out of curiousity, i went to your archived post for last years selection camp.....

realized that getting fun out of torturing defenseless kids is just wrong.

made me regret all the stuff i did to my year 2 cadets.

Lucas said...

Hey, don't worry about it. I always screwed karate gradings, and passed them. :) (Honestly, how else does someone like me end up with brown? It defies the mind.)

Take each moment as it comes; have faith. We'll be there for you. Oh and Jem: Have fun at JuneAC (I assume the capitalization's right.)

Spiky said...

haha thanks lucas :)

michal said...

HEY!I'll be going for SNCO uh.SEE you there :D

Spiky said...

Hi XD

Awesome!!!!! :D

You have 6 blogs.......

michal said...

HAHA,yeah.BUT I've shifter to WORDPRESS :D

http://michells.wordpress.com/

Spiky said...

ah..... ok..... thanks :)

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