I went in and did the paper with nothing but anger and fear, knowing that it was nothing more than a suicide mission. I look back feeling only regret and desolation.
I try to fight back the tears, as I try my best to prepare myself for a grade below 36 points. I feel like I let down everyone I know. My parents, teachers, friends. I'm sorry... I'm a disappointment...
I think I might get kicked out of IP. If that happens, the people I'm gonna end up hurting most are the people who are the reasons I live each day for. My friends. Especially those in my class now. And especially the one who wrote a petition to Mr Liang Chew Man, just so he could change class to be in the same class as me. I'm sorry for letting all of you down..... I'm sorry I couldn't be a better friend.....
I guess if I get kicked out, I'll change school. If only I could just run away from all of this.
But I know that no matter where I run, I'm gonna be chased forever by the shadows of regret.
3 comments:
you're not the only one scared.
we all are.
you know what sucks the most?
when I work so hard in keeping up with my day to day work in chinese.
while others don't bother. not cause they have no time. just that other things are more important.
the fact of the matter is that my chinese may never beat theirs.
in fact, goes for all subjects. my work attitude is one of the best for my type of schedule.
yet when it comes to the crunch. others perform. I don't.
don't worry too much.
I've a feeling that I just make the cut, if not I'll be moving down as well. Highly unlikely unless by some God given miracle that I'll get more than 37 points.
Hey... Express is not the end of the world. =)
Let me tell u what sucks for me:
I wanted to take 3 sciences last year, but my physical science teacher said dun take physics. What sucks is that I ended up in a class with a HUGE bunch of idiots b'cos of my current subject combo. And in the end, I had to be CHAIRMAN of this IDIOTIC class. You can't concentrate during lessons, the teacher's voice cannot be heard without shouting, ppl get into trouble once in a while. We managed to get 3 consecutive "Most Well-Maintained Class" award is b'cos of our PCT (u know who) who acts like he is the CT. Although there are some great ppl, but more than 2/3 the class is in their own "gang".
Oh well... what to do??? That's life...
Jem - thanks... yeah that feeling sucks the most......
Joel - thanks...
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