Tears Behind the Smiles

Today something happened. Its rather embarrassing. All I can say is that I wish that certain classmates could be more considerate and to think of other people and not be so selfish/greedy. It doesn't matter which country you come from and what their culture is like. The ACS culture is we all help each other. 

Worse thing is, the actions of these people upset other people. If you hurt me, then fine. It dun matter to me. Many people do that anyway. If you hurt my friends...... its agony for me knowing how they feel.

I'm sorry Daryl.

Its something I didn't do, but I'll take the blame for it anyway. Cos that's what a leader is supposed to do. To be responsible for the actions of those he leads. 

I'm okay with that. Most of the time I know what to do to fix a messy situation. But this time, I am at a loss. I really dunno what to do now.

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Joseph, I totally disagree with your blog. You are one of the most awesome friends I am lucky enough to have. Every time I felt down, you were there to pick me up. Every time I needed a listening ear or a shoulder to cry on, you were around. Those are stuff very few people would care enough to do. If you weren't around, I'd have jumped in front of an MRT train a long time ago.

Nico, how could you say that you are a hindrance to me? That is absolutely preposterous. I would be nowhere today if you weren't around. All the projects we did together, just wouldn't be as fantastic as they are. And you saved me when it came to India Biotech Fair, by right I should be out right now. And you were always prepared to listen, every time I needed someone to talk to. 

You both are awesome friends and you guys mean the world to me :)

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We lost interclass soccer. That is immaterial. I don't even need to be there to know that you guys did your very best. That is the only thing that matters. For that alone, I give you my greatest respect and admiration :)

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I realize a lot of people are putting on a nice facade or mask in school, pretending to be happy when they are not, pretending that everything is okay when it isn't. 

School is like some masquerade party.

I do that too. I'm sorry. I lied to everyone. I lied to all my friends. I lied to myself. I'm not the happy and hyper Ali you see in school every day. I'm sorry. 

Why are we even doing this? We don't have to. Our friends will always be there for us. We don't have to hide the pain and suffer in silence.

It hurts the most when you try to hide the cuts and slashes.