Where should I start.....
I guess I was disappointed. With someone. A fellow S/NCO. He knew that the camp dates had been shifted 1 week earlier well before the exams even started. But he didn’t tell anyone, not even any of us S/NCOs, until 1 day before the camp itself. By then he had created his own camp schedule without discussing it with any other S/NCO. He didn’t even have the courtesy to call at an appropriate time when he finally did, at 11:45 pm, two nights before the camp.
The year 2 NCOs should have been planning the camp. We all told them they would get to. The way this person just came along with his own schedule and using that instead would certainly have disappointed the year 2 NCOs greatly. That’s not even begging to describe the disappointment of those year 2s who were on the original list of NCOs, who were replaced with his list, again without prior discussion with other S/NCOs.
In fact the right to select the year 2 NCOs is that of the year 2 I/Cs. He was year 1 I/C and thus could not possibly have spent as much time with the year 2s as the year 2 I/Cs to properly get to know the year 2s.
Despite all this and the S/NCOs frank expression of our upset, he didn’t bother with an apology nor an explanation to the year 2 NCOs. Even the way he carried himself at our meetings, the tone with which he spoke in and the diction which he used, might have suggested a disregard for other people’s feelings.
Maybe that was the reason why we fell out as friends two and a half years ago.
Because he couldn’t care less about other people’s thoughts, other people’s opinions, other people’s feelings.
I did consider writing this addressed straight to him, with “you” instead of “him” being the word of choice in the text. But I didn’t, because I figured that it wouldn’t matter anymore anyway. Even if he bothered to read it, he’d just do what he did before, which is to print the whole thing out, find me in class, and tell me that he’s right and I’m wrong.
I’ve talked to him before, and we talked about how we felt about each other’s way of interacting with other people. When it got to talking about him, I’ve always told him about how many other people feel that he goes about stepping on everyone’s toes, and while what goes around might be somewhat exaggerated, I’m not inclined to believe that it is all untruths.
Right now I’ve already said everything I wanted to say about that to him. There’s nothing really left to say anymore. I don’t know whether he actually took me seriously and actually considered some of the viewpoints that were brought up. But anyway, it feels like now is the appropriate time for me to just wish him all the best in life, and walk out of his.
Sunday, October 25, 2009
Friday, October 16, 2009
Of Musical Rocks 12:42 AM
Today was awesome :)
A Math Paper 2 today was the last exam paper :) After the paper, we celebrated Ms Ong's birthday outside the staff-room, and uhhh disturbing the Year 4 exam in the process XD After that, gonna go watch Cloudy with A Chance of Meatballs with Jon Tang, Saurabh and Ben Tay :D Ms Ong already watched the movie so we kinda had a conversation about it XD
Then after the birthday celebration we went to chase Ms Ho around the front porch of the school XD This is Ms Ho trying to get us to go home...
Rush home, shower, change. Head off to VivoCity to meet Jon Tang, Saurabh and Ben Tay...
After I got there I called Jon Tang to find out where we were meeting and he said they were opposite TANGS department Store. Uhh :) And then when I got there Jon Tang and Ben Tay jumped up on me from behind XD
So we walked to the cinema first so that Saurabh would have problems finding us. Uhh Jon Tang's idea. XD And then Saurabh called to ask where we are, and so Ben Tay said we were "outside Mini Toons". LOLZ XD
We wanted to go to the basement cos there was a lot of food to choose from there. Then Saurabh suggested walking through the car-park to get there cos we went down the wrong escalator into the car-park. We did that. And promptly got lost XD.
So we went back up and went to the basement the normal way XD
We had lunch at Subway, and then we quickly headed to the cinema cos Saurabh suggested going early to watch the movie trailers. Then when we got there all they showed was commercial advertisements, so that was pretty hilarious XD. BTW to Arul who wanted to know: 2012 shows starting 12 November.
Now, about the movie Cloudy With A Chance Of Meatballs. In a sentence, IT WAS SO FREAKING AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I thought it was a very meaningful movie :) On the outside it seems like some kiddie cartoon kind of show, but its actually a very thought provoking comment on love, self-identity, individuality versus conformity, and the prejudices of modern society :) It felt like a very thoughtful movie, one that prompts a kind of self reflection.
The plot was really original, and there were a couple of very moving scenes. Definitely a heck lot of funny ones :) Lots of hilarious jokes :) It was a really entertaining movie :D And the soundtrack fitted really well with the movie too :)
After the show we walked around VivoCity for a bit. Went into the National Geographic Store to look at interesting artifacts and make comments on how expensive the things were XD We went to PageONE where all the bookshelves were rotated at rather arbitrary angles...
And then we went to.............. TANGS Department Store!
Thus, the Photo of the Day,
After that we went to the roof-top where I uhh went into the kiddie splashing pools... Took some photos from in the middle of the pool, you can see the water at the bottom of the photo. Ben Tay has the photo of me in the pool XD...
And then we all sat down under the shade and breeze of one of those humungous air-con vents, listening to uhh a musical rock. See the green rock thingy in the middle of the picture? It was producing music. It played Canon in D while we were there plus some other funny piano piece XD...
It was quite a nice place to sit down and hand around :) Then we went to the pet shop, walked around a bit more, went to Harbourfront for a bit, before going home.
Anyway thanks Jon Tang, Saurabh and Ben Tay for a TOTALLY AWESOME afternoon, with all the hilarious conversations about everything under the sun :)
You guys totally made my day :)
A Math Paper 2 today was the last exam paper :) After the paper, we celebrated Ms Ong's birthday outside the staff-room, and uhhh disturbing the Year 4 exam in the process XD After that, gonna go watch Cloudy with A Chance of Meatballs with Jon Tang, Saurabh and Ben Tay :D Ms Ong already watched the movie so we kinda had a conversation about it XD
Then after the birthday celebration we went to chase Ms Ho around the front porch of the school XD This is Ms Ho trying to get us to go home...
Rush home, shower, change. Head off to VivoCity to meet Jon Tang, Saurabh and Ben Tay...
After I got there I called Jon Tang to find out where we were meeting and he said they were opposite TANGS department Store. Uhh :) And then when I got there Jon Tang and Ben Tay jumped up on me from behind XD
So we walked to the cinema first so that Saurabh would have problems finding us. Uhh Jon Tang's idea. XD And then Saurabh called to ask where we are, and so Ben Tay said we were "outside Mini Toons". LOLZ XD
We wanted to go to the basement cos there was a lot of food to choose from there. Then Saurabh suggested walking through the car-park to get there cos we went down the wrong escalator into the car-park. We did that. And promptly got lost XD.
So we went back up and went to the basement the normal way XD
We had lunch at Subway, and then we quickly headed to the cinema cos Saurabh suggested going early to watch the movie trailers. Then when we got there all they showed was commercial advertisements, so that was pretty hilarious XD. BTW to Arul who wanted to know: 2012 shows starting 12 November.
Now, about the movie Cloudy With A Chance Of Meatballs. In a sentence, IT WAS SO FREAKING AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I thought it was a very meaningful movie :) On the outside it seems like some kiddie cartoon kind of show, but its actually a very thought provoking comment on love, self-identity, individuality versus conformity, and the prejudices of modern society :) It felt like a very thoughtful movie, one that prompts a kind of self reflection.
The plot was really original, and there were a couple of very moving scenes. Definitely a heck lot of funny ones :) Lots of hilarious jokes :) It was a really entertaining movie :D And the soundtrack fitted really well with the movie too :)
After the show we walked around VivoCity for a bit. Went into the National Geographic Store to look at interesting artifacts and make comments on how expensive the things were XD We went to PageONE where all the bookshelves were rotated at rather arbitrary angles...
And then we went to.............. TANGS Department Store!
Thus, the Photo of the Day,
After that we went to the roof-top where I uhh went into the kiddie splashing pools... Took some photos from in the middle of the pool, you can see the water at the bottom of the photo. Ben Tay has the photo of me in the pool XD...
And then we all sat down under the shade and breeze of one of those humungous air-con vents, listening to uhh a musical rock. See the green rock thingy in the middle of the picture? It was producing music. It played Canon in D while we were there plus some other funny piano piece XD...
It was quite a nice place to sit down and hand around :) Then we went to the pet shop, walked around a bit more, went to Harbourfront for a bit, before going home.
Anyway thanks Jon Tang, Saurabh and Ben Tay for a TOTALLY AWESOME afternoon, with all the hilarious conversations about everything under the sun :)
You guys totally made my day :)
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Upset 10:08 AM
You know that feeling when nothing seems to go right?
Like how you know that you couldn’t have done any better but what you did was still bad anyway.....
Like knowing you tried your best but knowing that that that isn’t even enough...
That’s how things are looking like from where I am.
Pretty much every paper was messed up save for Language Arts and Biology. Even the papers that were apparently easy according to many other people like Chemistry and A Math’s I messed up too.
Its not like I’m lazy and couldn’t care less or anything. I did the past year papers weeks in advance. I read the textbook cover to cover. Where I miss lessons because of competition or whatever, I stay back after school to make up for it.
And then even so things still mess up.
Heck, even piano was screwed. I failed by 16 marks.
I really don’t know what to do right now or how I should be feeling. I know if I did my best I should be happy. But people don’t care whether its your best or not because all they care about is the absolute and not the relative.
And then its also upsetting that you know that because you did better before that people expect so much of you.
And then theres the people you’re supposed to be an example to, the people who look up to you. How do I explain myself to them.....
Things look pretty bleak right now.....
Right now I feel somewhat disappointed, a little confused, and really really sad.
Like how you know that you couldn’t have done any better but what you did was still bad anyway.....
Like knowing you tried your best but knowing that that that isn’t even enough...
That’s how things are looking like from where I am.
Pretty much every paper was messed up save for Language Arts and Biology. Even the papers that were apparently easy according to many other people like Chemistry and A Math’s I messed up too.
Its not like I’m lazy and couldn’t care less or anything. I did the past year papers weeks in advance. I read the textbook cover to cover. Where I miss lessons because of competition or whatever, I stay back after school to make up for it.
And then even so things still mess up.
Heck, even piano was screwed. I failed by 16 marks.
I really don’t know what to do right now or how I should be feeling. I know if I did my best I should be happy. But people don’t care whether its your best or not because all they care about is the absolute and not the relative.
And then its also upsetting that you know that because you did better before that people expect so much of you.
And then theres the people you’re supposed to be an example to, the people who look up to you. How do I explain myself to them.....
Things look pretty bleak right now.....
Right now I feel somewhat disappointed, a little confused, and really really sad.
Saturday, October 10, 2009
Precipitate 10:43 PM
Lately stuff has been pretty much insane.
Which would kind of explain why nothing has been appearing here. Exam revision has been pretty frantic, leaving little time for anything else. Right now is the middle of exams and both Lang Arts papers, both Physics papers, C Maths 1 and IHS are already done. I think everything except Lang Arts was pretty screwed.
Anyway exams end on friday. 5 days more.
Some of us got away with not studying for final exam last year and still got pretty decent marks. But I guess that doesn’t work in Year 3. Not with the likes of having Bose, Kwang Pow, Kenneth Ong all at the same time.
Its quite ridiculous really, having to teach myself mole calculations and stoichometry, figure out malgudi days essay myself, and go learn the whole year’s C Math from the textbook, again, by myself. I don’t really see the point in attending lessons where I learn more by myself because some people don’t really put in any effort into teaching their lessons.
Anyway on a happy point, today is 10 October. Which means that its just one more month to go before the launch of Call of Duty 6: Modern Warfare 2 :)
Oh yeah and if you want to play against me in COD4 like during the holidays at the end of the year or something you can go to the About page to find my gamer tag :)
P.S. if anyone can find out Jon Tang’s COD4 gamer tag, can you please tell me? :D
muahahahaha...
Which would kind of explain why nothing has been appearing here. Exam revision has been pretty frantic, leaving little time for anything else. Right now is the middle of exams and both Lang Arts papers, both Physics papers, C Maths 1 and IHS are already done. I think everything except Lang Arts was pretty screwed.
Anyway exams end on friday. 5 days more.
Some of us got away with not studying for final exam last year and still got pretty decent marks. But I guess that doesn’t work in Year 3. Not with the likes of having Bose, Kwang Pow, Kenneth Ong all at the same time.
Its quite ridiculous really, having to teach myself mole calculations and stoichometry, figure out malgudi days essay myself, and go learn the whole year’s C Math from the textbook, again, by myself. I don’t really see the point in attending lessons where I learn more by myself because some people don’t really put in any effort into teaching their lessons.
Anyway on a happy point, today is 10 October. Which means that its just one more month to go before the launch of Call of Duty 6: Modern Warfare 2 :)
Oh yeah and if you want to play against me in COD4 like during the holidays at the end of the year or something you can go to the About page to find my gamer tag :)
P.S. if anyone can find out Jon Tang’s COD4 gamer tag, can you please tell me? :D
muahahahaha...