Decided and Determined

C Math marks came back today. I got 43/50. I was originally happy. Until I saw Nico and Arul and Swapnil's marks and the marks of that kind of people in general. Most were getting 49 or 50. I felt like crying. Life is so like that.

Ivy Goh did not appear today, so we had an hour of free time. Spent it brainstorming for Life Sciences Symposium ideas. I'm doing Evolved Communication, find out more at IB Physics Lab 3. :) Cya there! Tomorrow, the whole team is meeting, I'm very excited, cuz I've got lotsa ideas :)

Moot Parliament went, well, not that great. Nico just had to press the keyboard and muddle up the last animation. I think the part that hurt the most that day, was discovering that only two of our three teams got in. Jeremy's team was rejected. I feel awful sorry for them. I cannot believe that RGS sent in 5 teams (4 were accepted), when the rule is not more than three. And this is at the expense of other MPP schools, because the total number of teams is fixed. And there were two duplicate topics selected, two teams doing foreign workers, and two doing HOTA, instead of introducing a new topic, like what Jem was doing - Women's Charter. How unbelievably stupid.

By Lang Arts 7 people had left the class for various reasons, many unwell. Ms Bose asked whether her lesson was making lots of people fall ill :) Lolz. She's a nice teacher with a sense of humor :)

Oh yeah, Alex Goh and co. did a fabulous class notice board. I love it. Creative. Great job done :)

Jeremy got hurt halfway through school. I walked past and I didn't notice until Daryl told me. I'm sorry Jeremy. I'm so blind. :(

In the end, I didn't go for the Life Sciences Symposium energy competition trials because Arul couldn't get the zinc on time. So we'll meet up on own. Actual thingy is on Friday. Apparently pure zinc is about USD 1000 per square foot. Cool. :)

So I went straight for art, where my concepts were flat out rejected, because they were not relevant to the context around me. Oh no. I'm gonna cry.

Halfway through thinking through possibilities for art, Barnabas and I kinda just talked. About stuff like internal conflict and issues in our CCAs, canoeing and MPac, about how we feel about what we do and why we do what we do. Today, I've found someone, who's equally passionate about what he does as I am about what I do. And made a new friend. We were more alike than I thought we would be. 

I think I've decided that I'm determined to leave MPac. Doesn't matter what teachers say. I'm set on quitting, cuz enough is enough. When I've settled matters for this week, I'll send in an official letter of resignation.

I came home, and there was a rather messy argument, with me in it. I decided that I'm gonna carry on with my life, ignoring the people who make me feel not good enough, the people who compare me to better people, the people who always find something wrong with me, the people who reject me. 

Decided and resolute, nothing will stand in my way.