I was not exactly happiest yesterday, what with forcing myself to come to school with terrible migraine and cough. Only to be bossed about by someone. I told that person to go away and that I dictate my own schedule. I hate it when people always tell you where you're supposed to be, constantly assuming that you are perpetually free. Especially, when they themselves hardly know what's going on in their own life and schoolwork. Being committed is one thing, being asked to drop everything else just for that one thing is just rude.
I mean I will always be willing to help out a friend in any way I can, anytime and anywhere. But when it comes to stuff like going together for courses and stuff (especially if you know I probably do not like the thing), at least ask properly instead of dragging people along.
So after that I think I yelled at some other people. I don't think I'll ever forgive myself for taking it out on other people. I think I hurt a few friends. I hope you guys will read this someday, because I'm really, really sorry. I think I'm more short-tempered than when I was smaller. Its the first time I remember taking out my anger on other people. I'm sorry.
Flag raising was quite messed up in terms of admin matters. I remember saying, "This has to happen on a day when I'm hardly at my best. People are going to die." I'm meaner than I thought I am.
I was also double-crossed by someone I thought of as a friend.
Migraine got worse. I took temperature: 38.3 deg C.
Today still feeling quite sick, so I didn't go to school and went to see a doctor. To the people who want me dead, you have something to be happy about.
I was diagnosed with early pneumonia.
At least its nice to know I still have friends who still care. Friends who are extremely responsible and dependable, who settled a lot of stuff for me while I'm out of school, or called to keep me informed about stuff which I should know about. With you guys, I can rest with peace of mind that everything is left in good hands. You guys have won my deepest trust long ago. Friends who send a simple "get well" note on FaceBook or something.
I hope you read that paragraph, because I really, really appreciate everything you people did for me.
3 comments:
just hope he screws up command on thursday if you despise him that much.
get well soon!
thanks :)
Hmm, this sounds bad... Well, recover soon, rest always helps.
Dictating schedules... I'd say in future, take less hints, state things obviously, if you don't want someone present, say so outright. Although it isn't particularly polite, nobody will blame you if said party fails to comply.
You're not particularly short tempered... more that once you've been crossed, collected anger is released.
If necessary, take tomorrow and Friday off. It'll give you time to recover. No point taxing yourself. I'm sure your classmates will take care of stuff for you.
Not to dampen spirits, but... just reminding you that you're down for GOH, but you could always get one of those "light duty" MCs, if you're not up to it.
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