I'm A Lost Cause

I've been so busy.... Its time to just stop and think for a while. I realize that life lost its meaning..... and I lost my purpose.

Have you ever sacrificed everything and given your all, without ever asking for anything back, only to be given in return demands to give even more?

Have you put all your effort into doing something well only to be slashed down just the same?

Have you ever had to be around people who can't accept you because you are different? People who tear away every last shred of the stuff that make you who you are? People who try to force you to be someone you are not? I'm so different now, I'm not me anymore.

So many people who would do anything to tear me down. Sometimes I wish I could run away from it all...

Have you ever fallen asleep..... wishing with everything left of you..... that you'll never see the sun rise again?

There was a time when I could come to school so excited, wondering what kind of fascinating stuff we would learn today. That was when I could live with no excuses, laugh like no one's watching, and love like I've never been hurt. 

Those were happier days..... now I think of them and feel only hurt and pain....

Now I've given so much of my energy away, I fall asleep in school, barely getting through, and left with little energy to do anything else. Why is it so hard to just be able to do the things you feel you are best at? Why is it so much to ask to be able to go where you think you might make the biggest difference?

I guess things are different now...... I guess I lost it all.....